We were all moody teenagers, once. Easier to believe with some of us, perhaps...
( Hi, one Leonard "Grouchypants" McCoy right here. Leaning aside on his hip, bracing his free hand on the floor, he swirls a little of the pinkish wine in his glass, considering Wei Wuxian's statement.
There's something so much like Jim in him, that warmth and optimism, the way he looked forward through even the worst adversity– not with fragile naïveté but steely determination, that the worst things out there in the galaxy couldn't snuff the light of such a kind, sunny soul.
McCoy looks down into his glass, and huffs. )
I was afraid when I first came aboard. Left my world in a hurry, at a bad time. ( Getting jettisoned into space via turbolift and knocking your head does that to a guy. ) I was a bit too ecstatic to get started in the infirmary, in something I recognized.
[That gets a laugh and a—] Speak for yourself, I have always been delightful! [Which is a lie, but not because he was a moody teenager.
He quiets though as he senses the change of mood, giving McCoy his uninterrupted attention. When he'd first arrived he wouldn't have even understood the idea of McCoy "leaving his world," but he has the context for it now and it means he pauses to consider the fear in such a situation. Who wouldn't be afraid at a time like that? Who wouldn't be wary?]
Mmm. It helps to find something familiar. It's grounding. [He quiets again and considers his own arrival. He doesn't think it mirrors most of the other Orbers on board, but then the circumstances under which he'd left his world are probably unique aboard the Ximilia.] When I arrived I was...lost. Too lost to be afraid. Too lost to take in the wonder. I didn't care about anything. I barely cared about my regret but it was...it was worth a shot.
Meeting people here changed that. It helped me care again.
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( Hi, one Leonard "Grouchypants" McCoy right here. Leaning aside on his hip, bracing his free hand on the floor, he swirls a little of the pinkish wine in his glass, considering Wei Wuxian's statement.
There's something so much like Jim in him, that warmth and optimism, the way he looked forward through even the worst adversity– not with fragile naïveté but steely determination, that the worst things out there in the galaxy couldn't snuff the light of such a kind, sunny soul.
McCoy looks down into his glass, and huffs. )
I was afraid when I first came aboard. Left my world in a hurry, at a bad time. ( Getting jettisoned into space via turbolift and knocking your head does that to a guy. ) I was a bit too ecstatic to get started in the infirmary, in something I recognized.
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He quiets though as he senses the change of mood, giving McCoy his uninterrupted attention. When he'd first arrived he wouldn't have even understood the idea of McCoy "leaving his world," but he has the context for it now and it means he pauses to consider the fear in such a situation. Who wouldn't be afraid at a time like that? Who wouldn't be wary?]
Mmm. It helps to find something familiar. It's grounding. [He quiets again and considers his own arrival. He doesn't think it mirrors most of the other Orbers on board, but then the circumstances under which he'd left his world are probably unique aboard the Ximilia.] When I arrived I was...lost. Too lost to be afraid. Too lost to take in the wonder. I didn't care about anything. I barely cared about my regret but it was...it was worth a shot.
Meeting people here changed that. It helped me care again.