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[singlelogbridge]

// Wei Wuxian

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XIMILIA

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[singlelogbridge]

It was easy for me once. thoughtless. the resentful energy helped. it numbs empathy and reason. heightens hatred and anger. You know I've never actually told anyone that even though it's always been true.

anyway, it was an empty way to live.

[blackfire]

( it is a long time before he replies again. then — )

I doubt very much it was ever easy for you, Wei Ying.

[singlelogbridge]

[Even in text, the appearance of his name makes him pause and close his eyes for a long moment. He replies after a longer pause than usual.]

You didn't see me when I came out of the Burial Mounds sustained only by seething hatred and a need for revenge. It was ugly, Itachi. I wasn't the man you know.

But that's not someone I'll ever be again.

[blackfire]

It was exactly the man I know.

Feeling hatred, being driven by vengeance — those things were a matter of circumstance, and justifiably so. That ugliness can be a part of you, but it is not and could never be the sum.

[singlelogbridge]

[It was all he'd ever wished for others to see in him. It was everything they'd refused to acknowledge. All of his life he'd been accepted for his parts and never as a whole.

He isn't sure what to think about feeling quite so seen.]

Itachi. I don't know if I'm the person you think I am, but I know that I really want to be.

[blackfire]

If you weren't that person, I would not speak as if you are.

（ have you really known him for almost a year and still think he's one to come away with anything but the most perilously exacting opinion of someone? smh. ）

[singlelogbridge]

[He sighs to himself, lips turning up in an exasperated but fond smile. He might not entirely believe Itachi, but he knows when not to argue.]

you're so stubborn, do you know that?

[blackfire]

It's been said.

[singlelogbridge]

Asshole. ["Affectionate."]

Alright, I'm going to go check up on Finn. I'll talk to you later.

[blackfire]

（ ✔ seen @ 19:29. ）